Okay maybe I can't ;;
Rai has been bad. :"C

I sincerely apologize to all of you for my lack of activity here.
It has kindof been a combination of things that has lead to that.
And while I never really intended to leave d.a. or thought I could ever become as disconnected with it as I am now, it's kindof happened.
BUT
With the end of the college semester coming up I intend to remedy this and post more/keep up more with the old friends I've been so out of touch with.

My SINCEREST apologies go to the people who are still waiting on commissions from me.  There's really no excuse for me taking such a gross amount of time. I feel really terrible about that.  

In my defense (there still is no excuse but I am not completely without reason) college has been kicking my ass.
I didn't quite really realize what a lazy person I was until this last semester.
I am in so much danger of falling on my face it's not even funny.  I really need to crack down in this last couple weeks and make sure I don't blow it.

But anyway, that being said- I've also been lazy about the rest of my responsibilities.  Commissions included.  And I am hoping the fact that I am admitting my huge mistake is at least earning me back a bit of my dignity :'C

YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN.  As soon as I get back home the first week of may I will try and power through the remaining pictures I owe people.  THEY WILL GET DONE I CAN PROMISE YOU THAT MUCH.  I do not take money from people.  While I may take a ridiculous amount of time, you still will get what you paid for.  I absolutely promise that.

Anyway.  With that off my chest, I suppose I should go on to explain the non-college reasons that I've been so dead here.
FIRST OFF.  
As a person in general, I have changed a lot.  To the point where I am really not sure if all of you would like me as much as you used to :'C

BUT, I intend to give those who still care about me more attention, and from there you can decide if you like the new me or not.
I've done a lot of growing up in these last two years I think.  It kindof started before my unexpected hiatus, so you can see some of it here in my artwork.  
But since I've moved primarily to tumblr, my art has really changed.

I still draw reptiles and fantasy things like dragons and the like.  They're still very much a part of my imagination, don't worry, but my art has taken a turn in a different direction.  Now I do mostly human beings/things similar to that.
LOTS OF TF2 FANART.  It's almost sickening what a humongous tf2 fan I am now LOLOL  IT HAS NOT GOTTEN BETTER SINCE I'VE BEEN AWAY.  IT HAS GOTTEN MUCH
MUCH

MUCH WORSE.  Also the ships oh god.

I STRONGLY RECOMMEND THAT YOU DO NOT SEEK OUT MY TUMBLR.  You may never see me in the same light again LOL.   There is SO MUCH GAY

However, if you're still with me through all of that, I guess shoot me a note. Heh.  If you have a tumblr and don't have a problem with gay men and nsfw things and just general WAT all over your dash, then feel free to ask for my tumblr.  However, I hope that you will respect me in my decision to keep any links to it THE HELL OFF D.A. AND FACEBOOK  AND EVERYTHING ELSE because of SO MANY REASONS I WOULD NOT WISH TO DISCUSS IN THE OPEN.

Hehe, striking out text makes it harder to read the things I don't want people to see >.> *sneaky rai* LOL

ANYWAY. I guess lastly,  I plan to make another D.A. soon.  I am going to post things there that I don't know if I have the courage to post here.
I will try to keep this one updated as well though, for the people that still want to watch me here.

I will post a journal if and when I do make another account for anyone that might want to send me a note asking about it.
But I will not post any link to it here because, much like my tumblr, I kinda wanna keep it a bit of a secret.  If you would like to know why, I would appreciate if you contacted me privately through a note or something.  I can't really say here. I feel like I've already spilled too much to be honest :'/

Anyway, that's it for my update.  Thank you for your time and I love you all <3